Bonus Mom

when I look at you

I don’t see the mistakes you’ve made

all of the bad memories fade

I see through the drunk texts and calls

I see through the tears you try so hard not to let fall

I see you

and all of the things you are so used to

I see regret

and loneliness

but when we met

I’ve never seen you as a mess

when I look at you

I see someone so incredibly intelligent

who holds a lot of sentiment

who can write the most beautiful pieces of poetry I’ve ever read

who sometimes goes crazy in her own head

and who sometimes just needs a friend

when I look at you

I see someone who is misunderstood

someone who is critiqued for her moods

I see someone who has given so much of herself to others

when not all of them have been good friends or lovers

but you kept giving anyway

when I look at you

my heart splits in two

I would like to give you one half of it

If that means you will feel complete

If that means your heart will start beating again

If that means you will finally feel free

of all the pain and sorrow you have been imprisoned by

oh my

how when I look at you

I see tears that have dried

and honesty instead of lies

I see someone I can come to

regardless of what it may be

you feel like home to me