when the dust settled

thoughts suffocate me

silences overwhelm me

the voices in my head i can't escape

when i close my eyes there you are

your beautiful face

so close but far far away

i reach out for you 

longing for your touch

only to be denied your love

chills travel down my spine

tears fill my eyes

oh the aching i feel

inside

emptiness that cant be filled

laughter no longer has a place

joy is no longer here

sometimes i think i hear your voice 

whispering sweet nothings in my ear

only to wake up to what used to be

just a memory of you dear

the last thing you asked me

"will you forget me when im gone" 

never

you made your country proud

but it was time for you to go home

i will miss you forever and always

my protector

my friend

my love

my other half

my happiness

my strength

my everything