living dream

i woke up in a dream

i saw myself asleep

my face a familiar form

eyes closed, mouth shut tight

as i lay on the bed,

then i floated up above suspended

didn't want to leave

i begged me please, my body to wake

it would not move or stir

my spirit form translucent hung like a linen sheet

now what? where to go is all i felt with loneliness

with no accompanying force of thought or entity

how strange it'd come to this

no chance to say goodbye to those i saw below asleep

still lying still on their beds with their moving chests

breathing with their spirits still within their bodies

dreaming dreams from which they'd awaken

never wondering what they'd slept when woke up in the morning

or even of their dreams unless they were enough to stir them

to remember what it was they'd dreamed about 

that made them fill with awe 

and then find my lifeless body still and cold

or aware i was above looking down below

wondering how it was that stopped my heart

my last breath that i took

missing me and shocked with their crying

me, sad and lonely wondering how to get back into my self

as i wondered i was pulled up into a light

a tunnel shaft of rays white bright and disappeared inside

i then remembered when i came into the world 

as a baby by my mother's life

helpless in arms that held and lifted me as i grew,

the faces that beheld me 

their voices soft and stern and in between 

the sound that filled the hollows of my ears,

the words, the pictures all the things i saw

that made me what i was that took me to the end of this

to make me cry and laugh despair and fret about the world i saw back then

it seemed a minute from babe to older man

all in a moment's time to this as helpless as a babe

about to enter into another realm and start all over again

where time was not a measurement but only the present now

everything seemed irrelevant, insignificant and of little worth

as i entered into the light all my dreams came true