Silence

I want silence for my soul

And meaning for my goals

Neither of it is at peace

Nor are any of my paths clear

As I try to make my way out through this haze

I keep stumbling and faltering

Small, subtle diversions

Momentary illusions that bring fleeting emotions

Is it meant to be liberating, cathartic or

some sort of an amusement

I may or may not know

But what I do know undoubtedly

Is conscious effort gives calculated results

And right now I may not be enough

However I will persevere as long as I can

For I am in search of silence for my soul

And meaning for my goals