Then I am Alone

When even the moon is not listening to your midnight cries

When you can't bring yourself to cry out loud

Because sobs are meant to draw sympathy from anyone

And you have no such luxury

When you start to feel the warmth of loving hands wrap around your torso

Only to grab for them

And find no one

But the cold reality of a dream

Long faded into the back of your mind

When you are so tired that you can't bear to go to sleep

Afraid of never waking up

Afraid of enjoying the refuge too much

When you are cynical

Scowling at the laughing flowers

Snickering at the chattering birds

Glaring at love through a hatred-stained window

Until happiness is not something embraced

But something ignored

Neglected

Lovely on paper but lost in practice

When candy covered fingers reach inside to rip out your heart

Breaking glass in your chest

When no one could hear you scream

When there is nowhere left to go