"Just breathe" they said nothing but thoughts of pain in my head! "C'mon you can do this!"

"Ok now big push!!!!"

All of a sudden I had a sweet little boy in my arms!

Forget all the crap I had to go through to get him here. Forget that I almost lost him once when his dad beat me, and just now when he was being born the cord was wrapped around his neck four times. Yes he was a blue boy, but none of that mattered now, because just now this sweet precious little boy that I fought so hard for, is finally here and he just looked up and smiled at me, and I swear I saw God

in his eyes and I knew things were going to get better.