the moment that i knew

I have waited

my whole life

for her

All of the

heartbreak

and tears

and leaving

and broken promises

and expectation that was

never met

and the hurt

and the lonely

and the days spent

crying on floors

lamenting the fact

that of all the things

I am grateful for

that one particular person

has yet to show face

until one day

she did

And it made

my teeth ache

and my heart beat

and my blood pump

and my toes numb

and the snow fall

and work to call

us both off

and the Universe

to grant us

a day to just

share

and drink

and read

and sleep

and kiss

and talk shit

ever so lovingly

and probably

overstay my welcome

and wake up

to trains coming

the second you stop

looking for 'em

And me praying to whothefuckever

that I haven't shown

my bones

too much

or my ways

or my heart

or my blood

and if I did

I feel so blessed

that it was you

who saw

whose eyes

I got to reveal myself to

whose breath I may have bated

and whose heart may have been

grabbed at

by those hands

that I love

that you try so hard

never to draw attention to