You

My family tells me I just need to go out again “someone new will make you feel much better” “just go out with a new guy” it’s not that I don’t have the offers but what if I don’t want something new? what if I don’t want another awkward first date, another talking sage that will lead nowhere, another first kiss, because I still want you. And I know that’s not logical or realistic because you have already started to have those first again but how can I start again when you are my first and last thought everyday? How can I move on when you still keep me up at night and wake me up with a FaceTime call? How can I move on when I still fall harder and harder everyday? How can I move on when no man makes me feel the way you did? How can I move on without you?