Haunted

You still worry about all the mistakes you’ve made

For any other life you’d instantly trade

You can’t hold back your screams and your cries

So you direct them at others and cut all your ties

You can’t forget all the times that you’ve failed

The people you hurt and the darkness you inhaled

You held on to all the times that you’ve been hurt

The actions of others and the blood on your shirt

You can leave the places and times behind

But never really get them out of your mind

You can laugh and carry a fake smile

When your state of mind is really so fragile

You can’t stand to be around people anyhow

Since the people you know can’t talk to you now

You can hardly remember when things weren’t so bad

And maybe your anger and sadness is all you’ve really had

You wake up still holding yesterday’s fear

That all you can think is you don’t want to be here

You’re worried that you’ll always feel this way

Why would you want to keep it all past today?

I told myself several times that today was the day

That all the thoughts in my head will finally go away

I then had a day that was a little worse then the rest

After trying and failing when I was put to the test

I had hit rock bottom and it felt pretty strange

When I finally decided that it was time for a change

I talked out my feelings and now take pills everyday

There were trials and errors to keep bad feelings at bay

I still feel sad sometimes, having good days and bad

But I will tell you that somethings different from what I had.

I dabbled with the thought that life was worth living

The bad things that have happened can still be forgiven

I won’t tell you it’s easy but it does get better

Your life isn’t worth less than any other

You can tell me you don’t think you’ll make it past today

And now I think I’ll know exactly what to say.