Too Far Gone

Lungs coated in sorrow

Eyes filled with despair

Bony limbs sprawled in the sea

I've always wondered what drowning would be like

Longing for it like the end of a boring movie

The water flowing down my trachea

Burning like hot cocoa slipping through frail fingers

Limbs reaching for everything and nothing at all

Neurons flying, landing nowhere

Begging the lungs to expand

To take air again

But the will to live is already gone

But now I don't have to wonder

I know drowning is like falling from the cliffs

And knowing I'm not going to make it back

Not caring to make it back

I know drowning doesn't burn

It freezes my veins into glacier

Takes emerald eyes, makes them cold marbles

I wish I could feel something

I'm already so far under

The undertoe has decided that this is my time

That today will be the day I know what the sea floor feels like

Waves flurrying, kissing me goodbye

Salt water hugging me until I cannot hug back

I'm already too far under

And my mouth opens for the last time

To scream or give up

Either way, it's already too far gone