Broken

Days go by without me thinking

People walking through my life

In n out without a care in the world

I don't know why they're always leaving

It's hurts so bad I wish I was dreaming

I wish I could smile without crying

It hurts so bad I feel like I'm dying

I need an angel to come from above

And make me realize

Realize that life is worth living

Feeling nothing hurts

The pain is unbearable

This shit if fucking terrible

The one I care about

Cares nothing about me

I wish life would just work out perfectly

But nothing is ever that orderly

Days go by without me thinking

I know I need to stop drinking

But it is the only way to soothe the pain

The pain inside my head

I just hope I don't end up dead

Some people try reaching out

Sometimes it’s not soon enough

Suicide’s a real thing

I just don’t want it to be me

I feel like I need help

But no one is there to help me

I just sit alone and cry

Wishing I was another guy

Another person

Someone happy who never cried

Someone who could deal with the pain inside

The pain gets stronger

The feelings last longer

There may come a day

Where I can’t take it any longer

I pray that day to never come

I pray for a way to overcome

I pray for my life to take a turn

In the way that I won’t want it to be done

I can’t take this pain any longer

This is my apology for anyone who cared

For anyone who stepped forward and tried to help

For anyone who is deeply hurt

But the pain I feel can’t be helped

Just hold onto till the day comes

Where it’s too much

On that day I will be done

Thank you all for trying

Maybe next time you will stop lying

Acting like you care

Acting like you’re there

Maybe next time

Just maybe