tempus

if time had stopped maybe i could change everything

maybe i could catch up on my work i’ve been procrastinating over for the longest time

maybe i could learn to love my mother more

i could walk out in the streets and look at the frozen people, wondering how their days were going to be

i would gaze upon sunlit sky and breathe a sigh of relief

i have time

i’ve always wanted this

to be able to move so thoughtlessly with no worries

i would hate everything a little bit less

to wander around the streets of the city,

and perhaps sneak a few extra ice cream samples in

all the while admiring the faces of those who appeared to be having a good time

would be bliss

heaven upon earth

my own pocket of nirvana here on this hopeless world

alone

just with my own thoughts

maybe i could tolerate myself

yes, maybe i could tolerate myself

if time had stopped