Valentine’s Day

At midnight I cried

Tears feeling never ending

The pain sinking in

The whole week I was depressed

It was a day I dread

Being single was nothing compared to the pain I felt two years ago

When I lost my last grandfather the air in my lungs disappeared

My family knew he was dying but no one told me

On Valentine’s Day I received the news through text while I was driving

When they pulled the plug I found through Facebook

When I finally processed what happened I was in the shower washing my hair

The air disappeared I sank to the floor of the shower trying to breathe

Darkness taking over pain filling my chest

The voice of my friends barely making sense

Trying to find the air

Gasping and gasping

The pain and tears drowning me

I finally found air and relaxed

Letting the pain sink in

The day is a hard one for me

I realized I didn’t take advantage of the time I had left with him

He will always be in my heart and memories

And I pray he’s watching over me