Finally I can put on my big girl pants and get the hell over you

When life starts to suck,

we tend to build these little fantasies,

little worlds where we are more important than we really are

And my life had just happened to be sucking at the moment

you came into view,

and you just so happened to look lovely to me,

and you spoke to me and seemed to care

So you were what my little fantasy revolved around,

what ran my little world

And I started to think I was more important than I was,

more important to you,

I thought we were close,

but we really weren't

And as my life started to suck less,

and my blindness and ignorance for you went away,

I started to realize I wasn't important,

and we weren't as close as my little fantasy and little world led me to believe

At first I was sad,

maybe even a little angry,

but I'm not anymore,

I understand now

So no,

I'm not angry,

or sad

I'm just learning how to grow up and move on