if I could go back

If I could go back...

Would I stay away from you entirely?

Would I admire you from far away, without you knowing I existed?

Would I acknowledge your presence, but remain at a distance?

Would we still become friends, but I don't let you too close?

Would I still love you, but try harder to keep it hidden?

Would I change all my decisions?

Would I make the same mistakes, but prepare myself for how it ends?

Would you still leave me, whatever I change, whoever I am?

Would I still regret everything, however it ends?

If I could go back...

maybe I wouldn't go back at all.