Sorry mom

I was four

With your wedding dress on

It was simple it was rare

It was beautiful long

I heard you laugh

Hugged you tight

Asked you is this all right

My little toes dancing fast

around the kitchen light

We felt wrong we were broke

In that tiny flat

Dreams were gone,

You were strong

My daddy made you mad

I took a vow, wished a wish

To never go through that

But here we are

Paralyzed by you choosing pain

You know mom

I held my breath as I watched you go

Jumped the bed yelled so loud

and I punched the walls

You took me home

I was scared asked you are we all right

Then you said don’t give up

I’m gonna win this fight

Go ahead say it loud

How it’s all my fault

I look like you as I grow old

And you too hate that so

I am here what you need

just hold my hand

Don’t you know I love you

I’m your best friend

Hey mom

Just dont push me away.

Look at me don’t give in

Let the world turn grey

You and me can’t you see

We can make it anywhere

Come on mom, think again

I am here by your side

Please come back

I feel lost,

thought we could win this fight.

You are home, all alone

You look at me

I am walking down the hall

then you give me the pill

Is this real, I can’t believe

Can you be so cruel?

I storm out, then come back

Mom, this isn’t a duel!!

I took a vow, wished a wish

To never go through that

But here we are

Paralyzed by you choosing pain

Lock me up, i’m not enough

I just fail too much

The only man I’ve ever loved

He turned to love the dutch

You pay my meals, provide the house

I’m just a whore on your back

You are mad coz you’re sad

But my life is the wreck

And I can’t do this anymore

It’s time for me to go tonight

Hope I’ll find my light

Into the unknown.

I’m sorry mom.