you will not cry for me

no

how dare you

even express sadness

keep your sympathy

keep your pity

I don’t want it

death becomes me

you will not cry for the ghost of the person I once was

don’t leave flowers for me

the flowers will die anyway

just visit me instead

smile and tell me about your day

laugh and recount the memories we once shared

write me poetry and music

talk to me as if I am still here

because yes

I AM HERE

I am with you everyday

and I’m sorry I had to leave you like this

but if I could relive my pathetic life

I would spend every moment of my time

making you feel the love I craved so desperately

so no

do not cry

do not allow my death to occupy your time

just

talk to me

write me letters

just

remember me