I lost

Im on the floor

In a heap

Like yesterday’s dirty laundry

Draped in lace

China doll painted face

Your mumbling to yourself

Resentment is an understatement

My hatred for you grows

A weed that cannot be killed

Despite how much weed killer you use

I smirk at the thought

It’s the happiest thought I’ll have all day

I’m drenched in sadness

It’s so stifling in here

I can barely breathe

I gasp for air

Pulling my self up

From the ravine my tub has become

40 days and 40 nights

39 to go

I flop onto the tile

Bruised like a peach already

I hardly notice the new one form

Avoiding my own glance

Rounding the corner

I hold my breath

This room feels like a dungeon

Somewhere inside of me

Grows hotter

Erupting like a volcano

Lava bursts from my tear ducts

Burning my face

No one should be envious of me

Pretty face until it turns ugly

Then what?

Your excuse

Was you don’t understand

Wrapping your brain

Around something other then yourself

Is almost impossible for you

I’ll lunge

A tiger staring down on her prey

Finally catching the elusive deer

Blinking back to reality

Your blank stare is worthless

An apology would of sufficed

Instead I’m biting my tongue

Blood fills my mouth

Our eyes locked

Nothing will make me lose this one

Ice cold shivers travel down my spine

Why did I have to try outsmart you

Boast my intelligence

Prove to someone like you

That I’m worthy

I’m the one you want

The sweetest candy in the whole jar

Pick me pick me

Now I beg for it to stop

Over and over again

Screaming at you

Your so deaf to my cries

I’d rather die then continue to beg for my life

In the chair I stare

The most luxurious life

Fake smiles next to fake identities

I’m the best

I earned this

No one is better then I

I won the greatest reward

They picked me

Instead of elation

I’m the saddest I’ve ever been

Orange is my new favorite color

Walking back to my new place

Nothing could be worse

Then the cell inside my head

I won