I.

skin clings to bone

mind stick thought and toxins

of pills and tears and bloody razors

face now ranges of snowy fear and dead men once

loved by young and old

many dead across lumps and bumps and deteriorating flesh

broken love and souls

her face in minds now gone distant

far from reach from her warm

gentle embrace

-11 lbs. later

thinner days come with fatter nights

clenching to phones and numbers

bathroom doors and wrists

memories of times and loves flushed in the toilet

and minds full of closed off darkness

please conceal

i beg of you

no one can save now

death is imminent and accepted

never will experience ever lead to hands un-held

lips untouched and intelligence unlearnt

selfish are actions that cause pain and fear

grasping to thick thighs of hers and mine

deceased bodies laying untouched

beams of hope

shutters closed

i look now unto her

cheek touch cheek

bone touch regret

perhaps it's too late to go back

to unheard nights

and glasses full of daisies

and cigarettes by moonlight

eyelids now shut

black like nights

i see stars of your presence in distances beyond

i grasp

i don't grab

goodbye.