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After a 10-hours liquor infused night I feel I need to reset my life:

I feel kind of cheated and too innocent

I thought I had grown up a little, in some aspects at least

I felt I could be good, be nice, be clever and be happy… I really, really thought I could be good and happy

But I am not… is not the role I’m supposed to play, I feel hate and rage

I feel terrible, I feel bad also

I really thought I could be good, be a good person, play a good role in life… you know, be someone who can bring happiness not just easy satisfaction

I felt so happy because I was being great, but no I wasn’t being great I was being the manipulative bitch I have always been

I thought I was good, I really though I was good and I wanted so bad to be good