Numb

Every song I sang

Every string I strum

All the poems I've wrote

And all the pain that've flown

I thought I've gone up

Cause I've been down for so long

I thought I've all grown up

Cause I've been a child for so long

But look at me now

I'm holding an ink & a pen

With my headphones on

I sing I'm lost again

I'm listening again to Ivan B

More music fills my ear

As his rap pierce my skin

More music fills my ear

Of different people,

Different stories,

All of their worries and anxiety

Again today I am anxious

I'm getting more depressed

All those videos in YouTube,

There all but a repetition of what I've read

And I think I've gone numb

I think I've gone dumb

For with my heartless heart

I still think at dusk

And I haven't grabbed my pen

Like the way that I used to

I haven't wrote any poem

In the style that I used to

I'm not depressed anymore

Yet I ain't as motivated as before

I think my author life is ending,

But you know what they say

Every Ending comes a Beginning

But for now I am numb

I got no pain

I got no humm

I got no happiness

I'm just dumb

Dumb & dumber writing

My paper's still blank

And all my feelings still aren't over

And my poems never rhyme

Like the way that they used to