when it all gets too much

when it all gets too much

turn the lights off

step into the blistering shower

let the fog fill the room

and stand

letting the water pound your useless body

and when no one is around

sob

sob

sob

let go of all your mistakes

let it drown with all the other water droplets

take as long as you want

because no one is there to see

who cares about what you look like now

let it become uncontrollable

fuck it

just explode

wipe your hand across the shower door

write down mistakes

regrets

promises

things you're grateful for

there will always be something

and if you can't find one

you're not looking hard enough

breathe over the glass

let it all disappear

and once your tears are gone

step out

open a window

door

anything

let the fog disappear

and the cold air

pierce your skin for a moment or two

before drying youself

compose yourself

step out of the bathroom

take a deep breath

you're ready to put your mask back on

and do it all again