If only

if only I could really dry her tears, maybe I would be a better person

If only I had studied harder, I could take her away from this life

If only I had tried harder, I could make things right

If only I hadn't...but I did

I committed a crime against the soul, guilt.

there's only one way out

I had a weak spot and they found it

I begged for pleasures of the flesh

now I only thrive in absolute silence, NOTHING

I stand in my own way, the only path to greatness is through holding onto myself as I try to fly

wings made of porcelain painted in gold, I could carry her with me I just know it

instead I have to bare this guilt, Instead I have this burden of all that will be and all that could have been.

I cannot carry you nor him, my arms are full from the pain and suffering I have the potential to cause

If only I could get rid of it....IF ONLY