Death

The long goodbye.

A dash of love.

An abysmal absence.

A painful new vacancy.

Loss was nothing new.

But this one was suffocating.

She wished she could take it all back.

Never know this love existed.

She wished she had been worth it.

But she wasn't.

All she brought now was hate and animosity.

She wished he still loved her.

Longed for her.

Would do anything for her.

But he didn't.

Couldn't.

Wouldn't.

She will never understand why.

She believed and saw and felt.

It was beautiful.

And bigger than the both of them.

But all it takes is one to decide.

One to stop responding

One to retract love

One to build a wall

One to push off

One to leave

One to shut it down forever

And she hated that there was literally nothing she could do about it.

Not breathe it away

Not wish it away

Not forget it

Not lessen it

Not have it

Not live

She was useless and worthless.

And stupid....

So stupid 

For ever having hope he'd stay.