Dear Dad

July 3, 2017 3:00AM

I sit in bed and I can't sleep

Even tho my eyes are weak.

I think about having a baby.

Even tho the kids I have drive me crazy.

You'll never hold your first blood grandchild.

And you won't be here to walk me down the isle.

My initial reaction is to just be sad.

Then I remember why you're gone

And that just makes me mad.

My whole life you chose a bottle over me.

But I never turned my back on you

Even when it made my heart bleed.

I sat next to you in the hospital

And I watched you slip away.

I held your hand and begged you to stay.

But you left and now I'm alone.

A stranger to myself in my own home.

I forgive you, and I also am sorry.

I love you everyday with every heart beat.