Memories

I remember drowning. 

I was so close to the surface, yet too weak to reach it.

I remember choking.

My lungs expanding to take in air but nothing entering my body.

I remember crying.

My eyes swelled shut from the storm of tears you created.

I remember burning. 

Sitting at the bottom of the shower, hoping the blistering water would clean your touch from my body.

I remember talking.

The first time telling another person what you had done to me.

I remember wishing. 

Looking at the stars, wishing you had listened when I said no.

I remember hoping.

When a new man wanted to care for me.

I remember leaving.

I couldn't tell him why I pulled away when he touched me. 

I remember so much

But all I want is to forget.