Wishes.

I wish I had a car.

So that I can escape when everything becomes too much.

I wish I had a job to help pay for the cars expenses,

And to buy the things I want 

So I do not look like a beggar to the ones I love most.

I wish I didn’t have this anxiety 

Eating away at me till there’s nothing left except nausea

I wish I was more social and had more friends 

So that I can rely on someone that’s not me 

I wish I could tell someone my deepest darkest secrets and have them not judge me for them

I wish I still had my childhood

I wish that it was not taken from me forcefully by some teenage boy who I thought he knew what he was doing. 

Being the small six year old that’s I was,  I followed his lead. 

But in the end,

I just wish I was happy.