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I try to tell myself over and over again

<strong>You are beautiful</strong>

<strong>You are enough

You look like a model

You could be a model</strong>

But it seems like I'm only lying to myself

I'm afraid

Stupid phrase to say

Afraid?

Afraid of my body?

No, I'm afraid that I am losing myself

Because I can't love myself the way everyone else loves me

I can't love my body the way some people love my body

I try.. I try to see something positive

But every time I see my body in the mirror, I think

I think of all the other girls

The curvy ones

The ones with the 'dream bodies'

The body that seems to be wanted more than others

Running my hands down my body

Tears forming, streaming

My body shake

Why can't I love my body?

What's wrong with it?

Maybe it's just not enough...

I'm so done.....