Mask Off

"Don't take this the wrong way but I am naked

Exposing myself to the world and showing everyone what it's like to be me

I'm not tryna be Hannah Baker, I don't need to explain my 13 reasons why they're the reason why I died

I mean I've been struggling with crippling depression

I've tried to show different individuals but they were neglecting my cry for help

I often lock myself in a room with tears falling down my face and slob coming out my mouth

I often tried shouting but ain't no words coming out

And when I find the courage to explain it to important people in my life but they often replied with "What the fuck you talking about?"

So now I walk around with my heart closed and a fake smile

Pushing away any person that tries to come around

I say fuck Mother Earth and every person living on it

I have no control over my life

It's like I went and pawned it to the devil

For a minute I had some very close friends and everything seemed like it would be fine

But people change and I'm not surprised

Guess the devils working overtime

Guess the devils using all his power to make sure I'm alone

No one to reach out to or talk to on the phone

My life's on a steep slope and I'm falling at a rapid rate

Guess you see where this is going

Now I'm choosing my own fate

It's the only thing in life I have control over

I could try to get over but I know the devils lurking over my shoulder

So if you receive this letter before the end of the night

You're probably too late reading it because I'm killing my self tonight"

Walking down the street I see another dead body

Blood leaking

His fam found him hidden in an alley

I think to myself just another life lost so society

A victim of black on black crime or police brutality

When I go to check it out I'm surprised that the way he went out was to take his own life

Cuts to both sides of his arms, yeah that's how this man died

Crazy so many years in his life and no one knew he was committing suicide

I wish I could grab his soul as tell him that's not the way to go out

But at the same time I understand what he was about

Cause for a while I was depressed and thinking suicidal thoughts

I often pondered if it was worth it and often thought bout the cost

I can understand that his only option was no option

It hurts being stuck in a life you had no intention of adopting

He was probably there all by himself

Looking for someone else to help

Revealing to people everyday but he was often ignored so he had to end it all

He probably could've been a lawyer or starred in basketball

But from my perspective ain't no telling what made this man fall

Ain't no telling what's going on behind closed doors

And just like that couple, people only seem to care when it's all said and done

I wish I had met him sooner this could've all been avoided

Take the devil off his shoulder and remind him that he has choices

Depression seems to latch on to people that hurt the most

It constantly haunts you like a demon or a ghost

And I can tell that this man had his mask on, being 2 faced showing a fake smile

Outside he showed happiness but on the inside he was down

And I bet it hurt even worst when he begged people for help

But they all have masks too just like everyone else

He had no control over his life like he pawned it to the devil

Helped wasn't received so he lived his life in peril

But shit at least he tried to reveal it all

It's other people that needs to take their masks off