fuck

i want someone to hurt me, to violate me and destroy me. i want someone to kill me, someone to mess me up so that my body matches my heart. these desires, they're all wrong, aren't they? but it's fine. i'm filthy, so i need to be cleansed. i want to show the world the hate and the dirt trapped inside of me. i feel so disgusting. i hate this. i hate this. kill me.

feel free to ignore this post

i must've been high on depression