Confusion

Nothing seems to stay

Not even things in my head

Things in my head roll too far and and too close

Feelings on my chest rotating back and forth

Taking turns slicing at my best

Either "I want you too" or "Even a hug is too much" 

I need one to stay and one to leave

Confusion

I am confused

Flirting continuously and then feeling guilty when it(the feelings) evaporates  

Am I just using you to cover up the bullet hole?

This isn't recently

Before you pushed me away, things were the same

Either I wanted you or it was too much

When will I make up my mind?

I'm just confused.