fick-le

i saw you in my dreams last night

i was in your territory

hoping but not expecting to see you

and it wasnt pleasant

i didn't take advantage of the dream

having one last moment with you

to hold you and smell you and

pretend it was all okay again

you got my glare

my head shake

i turned and i asked you why

i didn't take advantage of the dream

and because it was a dream i heard

the cliche excuses 

because i dont really know why

because you aren't there anymore

and you left

without a goodbye

you were annoyed at me

for jumping to conclusions

i didn't take advantage of the dream

for passion, for love, for lust

for memories

for everything you could have been

and somehow i wonder

if you dreamt of me too

did you

do you

feel my ache

because i feel worse than i did

before the dream

i didn't take advantage of

i still have no answers

i still have no acknowledgement

you are

you were

the greatest nothing something

of my life