Hold (song)

written 4-5-16

I'm afraid of your touch

Because I fear you'll hurt me

I'm afraid to be loved

I've always wanted to be free

I don't want you to see

The monster inside of me

I try to be strong

But inside you'll find I am weak

So if you hold me tight

I'll forget that I want to let go

If you feed me the lies

I'll forget all the truth that I'm told

Because I want to get away

Want to see the world unfold

But I'm just too afraid

And I'll be stuck here till I'm old

Please stay away

Because then you might just see

The bad things and you'll find the monster that

Lives inside me

If you knew me you would stay away

If you loved me you'd find another way

But I can break these walls down for a while

And start to smile

So if you hold me tight

I'll forget that I want to let go

Just tell me the truth

Though I never wanted to know

I can't face reality and I live in my dreams

I need more than a friend, someone to comfort me.