Pain

Squandered time and wasted pain

Was it worth it for you? It's been so

So long since I looked forward

To crying myself to sleep

There was a time when I had so much.

I wanted to love, I wanted to help,

I wanted to feel. And well, I did feel

But not in the way that we had intended

Now instead of pain, I can feel my soul

Is not filled at all. I have been drained

Not only of love, but hate, but hope.

All I have left to show of you and I

Is the fact that I am I empty

I feel like I have been robbed of so much,

But it turns out that everything that's gone

I gave away myself. It wasn't your fault,

but mine, and I wanted to share all that I had-

And everything that I happily gave,

Is now deteriorating

In the back of your head

And I'm just waiting

To feel ok again.