Starting Again

This beautiful creature

My eyes behold

It's like we share the same astranged Souls

While we are unique in subtle ways

Often when around him 

I'm in daze

For sex is his number one

Or at least he portrays

How will I ever know

Let me count the ways

He says it complicated 

I say it cannot be true

How do you otherwise interpret

I love you or

I'm falling for you

His body caters to every physical 

And emotional need

Had death not be a dangerous option

I would carry his seed

But the way I'm falling 

I would give it all

Knowing he AND I would surely fall

My body's  reacting in a way 

I never knew

I don't feel comfortable saying 

I don't know if I love his penis 

Him 

Or "The both of you"

For he and his lover

Tease me in a vaginally creative

And unfamiliar way

I don't have to touch Mrs. Clit

Press buttons 

To experience the orgasmic

I must be cautious 

Sorting through what I have to live For

For my pain 

I do not want my kids to endure

Some way I like to feel 

That my dreams may come true

And not to the benefit of another

Susie Q

While we are strangers

We're becoming acquaintances 

33 years

I don't  have too much time

But I don't understand what this is

His lack of guilt 

Turns us cold again

I'm not sure what to call it

But we can't be friends 

I'm in a new place

Taking the Doctor's advice

For once in my life

I want to say and know I'm right 

So much in common 

But distance too

Celebrating holidays 

Before the day

Trying to start anew

I'm a stranger to his mind

While he tells sweet lies

The one protecting your feelings

While you want no more dealings

I want to walk away 

"A divorce" before it begins 

One mistake 

WE moved to fast 

Should've begin as friends