Back again

I love you too

But dog, is that really true?

Do you listen when I talk?

Can you really hear me through?

I feel the love, I feel the pain

I feel the stressed out strain

But when do you stop to truly contemplate my brain?

Iʼm here, I love, I believe

Fuck this, I hate, I wanna leave

Back

Again

The smell of you, I canʼt forget

Your love seeps only from your sweat

My naked body soaks you up to forget

The lack of mental harmony, that intellect.

But we'll connect, one day, perfectly

Not just in dreams, in real life, hopefully.

You want me to find me,

But each step I take, you'll certainly disagree

And I'll continue to embody insecurity.

Not to say I donʼt make this rough,

The possessive jealousy, shit thatʼs enough.

It feels as if the love you show isnʼt safe

As if it exists for someone elseʼs sake.

Thatʼs not an underlying thought,

Itʼs a daily battle fought.

Yet here I am, longing for your mind, your touch, your genuine affection

To cultivate my soul and our spiritual connection.

Something from within refuses to release,

A part of you it wonʼt rest in peace.

Our energy is drained from this never ending cycle,

How do we locate ourselves if we focus on this spiral?

Iʼm here, I love, I believe

Fuck this, I hate, I wanna leave

But wait, it can work, donʼt deceive

Spit out the truth – how you feelin?

We're just friends, we're just chillin

And we can mask the emotions,

That illuminate the inside of our intimate moments.

Repress, stress and guess.

By Madison Harrison