Winter
Winter
Where roots grow deep and strong
And life contemplates itself
Within the stillness
Warm breath on frosted glass
Urging time to crawl to its
Next destination
Winter
We pause and take stock
Of the things we have lost
The experiences we have gained
And the wisdom that was gifted
Within the struggle
We become grateful for the internal warmth
The hands we hold
The simple abundance we maintain
The hearts connected to ours
Winter
Where the hope of tomorrow
Springs forth in our hearts
Longing for the sun to shine
The snow to melt
And life to spring forth again
For grey to give way to greens, pinks, yellows, and blues
The earth waking from its slumber
Wiping away the sleep from its eyes
Winter
We take stock of everything internal
Deep calling unto deep
Before we rise and dance again
With life anew
Teach Me
Teach me how to love you
Through that tangled path
Guide my hand
And guide my heart
Beyond our looming past
Teach me how to listen
Beyond these fears within
Invading thoughts
Be still my heart
And hear the voice of him
Teach me how to know you
Through all your silent words
That boy inside
Who likes to hide
Like a knight without his sword
Teach me how to see you
In light more than in dark
To uphold high
The man inside
And show him his own spark
Yes, teach me how to love you
Please show me the way
I hope, I must
Do dare to trust
Your heart holds mine ablaze
Try
Try
Try not to cry
Try not to scream your want to the wind
No one will hear
No one will rescue you
For they are too busy enjoying
Their life
To take notice of yours
Try
Try not to care
Try not to wish someone would need you
Would see you
Would hold you like you so dearly crave
Because their own responsibilities
Are more important
As they should be
Try
Try not to want
Try not to need anything outside of your own lack
And ensure to muster up the energy
To save your own life
Instead of saving others
Try
Try to be grateful
Try to give thinks for the life you have had
And the wonderful possibilities of the future
No matter how lonely
It seems
Try
Try to find peace
Try to deep reach within and find the meaning you came to earth for
Believe not the lie that your life will be
Magically transformed into
Bliss in the arms of another
For when they leave then your bliss leaves with them
Try
Try not to give up
Try not to think that this life would be better without you
As if doing so
Would be some sort of vengeance against your circumstances
Life will go on without you and your name will be forgotten like the billions of the past.
Try
No matter what, try
No one can do that for you
The Longest Nights
Tears stain my pillow
As every cell of me aches to
Feel you near me
Hear you breathing
Know you are there
But I know you need the space
You need see how you feel
I have learned my lesson
Long ago
That a man needs time to
Seek his heart
Walk his path
To rescue his future from
His past
And getting in the way of that
Leaves you left in the mud
Bleeding
I must return to Love
While I wait
As I cannot give what I
Have not cultivated in myself
First
In the longest nights
Where sleep evades this
Tired soul
Taught
I’ve learned to stay silent.
That no matter the pain and fear inside, they are only my own.
I’ve learned to stay silent.
That the truth and the answers to unspoken questions would be revealed.
I’ve learned to stay silent.
At the bedside while love helplessly faded before my eyes.
I’ve learned to stay silent.
When rage fills the house and one sound would turn it towards your direction.
I’ve learned to say silent.
So much is said when one does not speak.
I’ve learned to stay silent.
This world taught me that it is best to be so.
I Miss
The way my soul settled on that
Very first date
The instant we hugged and felt tangible grace
The northern lights floating from
Five feet above
The way that we knew this was of
Divine love
How people would sigh whenever we sang
Or told us our love was an undeniable thing
The way you held space as my mind and heart raged
With words pouring forth as of just freed from a cage
How your love inspired me to creatively explore
How your belief in me helped me to soon become more
That I could speak my mind thought we ’oft disagreed
And no matter my rage your love strongly held me
Your soft, loving hands and your wise, gentle heart
And the way that you remained until death so us part
Beloved, I’m thankful that through all we went through
We always loved each other from the bottom of our shoe
In rememberance of my husband Mark Withey
Dream of Dawn
Silence, an old friend
Come to play in the dark
Shadow puppets against the bed frame
Memories of years gone by
Like sands in an hour glass
Dancing with my inner thoughts
Like connecting the
Chaotic constellations
With each step
Losing my way back to reality
Where the minutes become liquid
Like melted wax on an alters candle
I should be used to this by now
These walls echoing Alexa with
Digitized thunderstorms to
Drown out the single heartbeat
Calling out to the void
With no answer in return
This soul sewn together
Loosely
With each shallow breath
Praying sleep calls soon as
To sleep the waking giant
Within
Caught between twilights I
Dream of the Dawn
Folding Into Dawn
Breathe
In
Out
Feel the warm moisture
Fill your lungs
Focus
Still you thoughts
When the world seems
To be falling apart around you
Breathe
And realize the gift it is
That Source once
Kissed it’s creation
Bringing life where there
Was none
Light from darkness
Form from void
Movement, in all its precious forms
Breathe
Feel the here
Now
And know it is all okay
It always was
It always will be
Breathe
In...Out...
Slowly
In this moment
In the stillness
In this darkness
Folding into Dawn
Breathe and give thanks
