The sun hid her face in the clouds.

She didn't want the world to see her cry.

Her teardrops burned holes in the horizon.

She lost her desire to shine.

**CAM**

The sun hid her face in the clouds.

She didn't want the world to see her cry.

Her teardrops burned holes in the horizon.

She lost her desire to shine.

**CAM**

Like dust in a wind gust.

gone.

Like the wind.

gone.

Like my appendix or my left lung.

gone.

Like a long forgotten memory.

gone.

How could I be so lost,

In a place I know so well?

How could I be so broken,

In a family so together?

How could I be so lonely,

Surrounded by so many?

How could I be so happy,

Surrounded by so much beauty?

How could I be me,

When even I remain a mystery?

The past has left burnt bridges.

The present gave me you.

The future brings me promise

Of things I wish to do.

But all of the battles I've fought

Have left me weary, weak, and low.

It would not be worth the troubles

If I'd never know.

Would you be mine forever, or would you let me go?

I wish I was still the girl I used to be.

I used to actually smile and be happy.

Now here I am, suffering in silence.

Darkness clutches me from the depths of my soul.

The life I had I can't have back.

The monsters are screaming inside my head.

 I only feel safe under the covers in my bed.

The mistakes I made have not been forgotten.

What I hide is buried deep inside.

To know, to love, to breathe.

It hurts to know that I'll never be the girl I used to be.

I'm not fake.

I just don't think I am the same in anyway.

Where did she go?

Is she still here?

Or did she run away, away from herself?

And decided to become who she is today.

She is me.

I am her.

The feelings are real.

Her truth is sealed.

The mistakes changed me, but the question is;

DID THEY CHANGE HER?