Why are we always so serious? Can people please just light up a little? I know, it is hard when nothing seems to go right and everything seems wrong. But sometimes we must learn to live a little. Yes, it's true. You need to be serious at certain times in your life. But you also need to break free from all of the pain and suffering. You need to laugh! No, I'm not a doctor. So I don't know what you're going through or the pain that you feel, but I have an idea of the feeling of no one wanting you or no one caring about you or even not wanting to live. I guess what I am trying to say is "Why so serious?" Is it because the unicorn under your bed attacked you today? Or did the dragon that lives in your shed try to kidnap you again. They probally were trying to have some fun. So now I have a question for you. 

Serious much?

Oh, my dear. Why am I writing about why when I could be spending time with you?  Why amd I sitting on my couch typing this up when I could be holding you in my arms? Why am crying over you when you are not even here? Why am I writing this to you when you don't exist? But that is where I'm wrong. Why am I writing this? I am writing about why because you exist in my heart. Forever you will be there. Why? Because why not?

Guilt is the constant reminder,

I am suffucating,

Every time I hear it mentioned,

I can't breathe, 

But they don't understand,

With the guilt, 

Always comes pain,

I am suffocating,

The burden I bear when,

The flashbacks occur ,

About the things he did, 

Telling me,

I deserved it all.