Stop it start it all the same

stop not listening stop not listening stop not listening

start thinking start thinking start thinking

i’m not listening to the silence that becomes silent over and over again

over and over and over the silence twirls

repetitive silence repetitive silence

Fill the gaps

the broadcasted anger

the words trying to flow out, flustered by emotion

destroyed by anger

I cannot speak I cannot speak I cannot speak

You cannot comprehend, a match made in heaven

I want to leave, but I am trapped within this prison

of tears and sweat

some my own, some yours

You say you are not proud of me

I don’t care

A legal bond is the only thing that makes me stay

I want to fly

I want to stay by myself

with others

anywhere

away from you

Last night I was finally free

you told me to chill

last night I was open

you told me to close

last night I felt like I could dance across the stars, with the stars, on the stars

you told me i was wrong

Chill dude

there is nothing more chilling than for someone to say take a chill pill

how dare you take away my freedom

how dare you tell me to stop enjoying myself

how dare you tell me anything

what made you stop enjoying yourself

what made you stop having fun

and instead walk around telling others not to

I’m not sure

it doesn’t matter

you don’t get to dare

you don’t get to tell

you don’t tell off anyone except for yourself

oh how the tables have turned.

Blood, Murder, Death

the human shame, yet

the names of our well known friends

Fear

the name ingrained in our heads, our first friend

Fear is the keeper of the beast inside of us

it has weekly secret conferences with anger in the courtyard

people’s friends before the beginning of their time,

joy, love introduced to fear, squashed

humanity does nothing to stop this, killing the beast would be killing a part of itself

Fear awakens, opening the cage to the primal beast inside us all

crashing, crushing, pure brutality

it is done

Blood, Murder, Death have seen us again

the water engulfed my mentality

my thoughts became rusty and pained

each droplet a person

each wave, People

crowding around

spreading confusion to drown me

i struggle to survive

who controls these tides?

who wants to drown?

Thank god

Thank the god of god

Does god believe in another god or does god just believe in godself?

If god believes in another god then that god must not want us to believe in themselves.

But then why would god care about a god who doesn’t care about us

so does god believe in godself?

Does god believe in us?

If god doesn’t believe in us then god could believe in the other god

But if god doesn’t believe in us, who does? some believe in god

those same some should sum it all up and follow god’s example

believing in themselves.

Drama King Queen Stop it.

Get over it

I can’t get anything

i don’t get it

I can’t get over it

the mountain just gets larger larger LARGER.

to climb it is impossible with each glare, each word used to cushion your statement. go away

sends avalanches down to paralyze my already frozen body.

you hate me

I don’t hate you

stop lying

to me or to yourself

get over your hate

get over yourself

familiar figures familiargures familiarer and familarer family aha! that’s it

Grete Gretel Hansel Gretel run away children everyone run from me be scared of me

monster me? monster i monster. ugh the monster they say

i’m bad i’m evil i am an object of mass destruction. destroy destroy destroy

what are they doing? this is quite (quiet)

uncomfortable

where are they taking it?

the good (is)old

days

find something save something

must

mother muster

do they care do they love do they do they do anything other than tolerate

tolerate people but i’m not people

i am a

apple!

run run run run

get back

in there((their)

life )

walk in walk out walk in walk out

to talk or not to talk

the conversation silences me

noise ends(all)

move in move out

talk or not

not to talk

back.

walk in walk out walk in walk out

move fast

move slow

move.

over and over again the cycle repeats

run away from the people

run away from the memories

run away from the pain

face your fears face your fears face your fears

YOU MUST

face the people

face the memories

face the pain

face?

How to face when I do not know my own face

hands face hands face

our face is nothing but our hands

hands move nimbly in and out the emotion

light to shadow, shadow to light

lightening the situation

foreshadowing darkness

creating the grey.

what(if)

what do you(I) want

I could restart

but I am too impatient

I am too afraid

falling down the rabbit hole, the horizon

only to wake up and find it was a dream

I can’t I can’t I can’t I can’t

move on.(stay)