if only doubt were silent
than the louder i could be
if only doubt weren't violent
than the softer i could be
i hesitate to trust my thoughts
so often they deceive
and since they were from no one else
it is a targeted defeat
i love
to layer
to hide
It is not the smell
Because that is welcomed sweet
But the nose tingle
Unclear and avoided signs
Don't know how to
Read between the lines
Half truths with full lies
Maybe it will be different this time
I felt a surge
between us
Did you bring your prop
How else will you avoid them
All those eyes that grind
Afraid to ask things
Fearful of the responses
Paralyzed I stay
It sinks in
I am a sponge
clogged drain
It seeps through
I am sheer
infinite domain
felt I raised myself
the notion you follow through
my intuition
I may be light skin
But I guarantee you can't
Handle my darkness
