Tomorrow is Christmas Eve. and everyone has urst into song yet i cant quite seem to sing along and all i can think is something must be wrong. I'm not exicted for this holiday season and no matter how much i search for the spirt i seem to come up empty-handed. So much has changed since I was young. We use to gather and have a huge celebration but now I'm missing out on the exhilaration. Fighting use to happen but it was part of the season. Everyone one gets on edge but it no reason to end our traditions. Christmas was my constent and now it is gone. I cant even listen to the songs.

Mom was what made it Christmas

She loved it

Decorations from years gone by

All of her treats

The packages the best wrap

Champagne at midnight

Santa doesn't put his presents in paper

What will I get

Stockings first

For her Este Lauder powder

Pick up the paper

Food is delicious

Everybody pitch in

Dishes done

Let's watch the movie mom bought us

This is Christmas past

Alzheimer's took her to soon

She's now doing Christmas with the real Christ

It's just not the same

I try every year

The treasure of Christmas is now in my heart

One day I'll join her at a huge Christmas feast

Once I was a child, Christmas was so much fun and joy

a cozy livingroom filled with warm colors and the smell of pine

underneath that big green tree, wrapped in paper was a toy

I couldn't wait to open them, I wish all of them were mine

now that I am older, there are other things about Christmans for me to enjoy

the company, the food, the love, I hope it will all go fine