somewhere deep within this mass of skin & bones

perhaps in some unconscious part of my brain,

[beyond gray matter & synapses & neurons & all thought]

part of me is begging you:

touch your hands to the [dead] skin cells on my face,

press your mouth to mine

[against all scientific reason, I believe that this alone

will teach my lungs to take in air]

Hey, how are you?

OK,or fine?

Confused, like a loser, ill-defined,

Like I'm to blame,

Psychotic, erotic, like i don't wanna talk about it, abused, burdened,

Enslaved, enraged, creative, like I

Need to turn the page,

Played, ancy, embarrassed, sad,

Shy, happy, bad, anticipating

Disappointment, frustrated,

Loved, Hated, suspicious, unrelated,

Malicious

Hopeful I'll get a date,

Hot, cold, selfish, yet helpful,

Faded

Surprised, excited, looking forward

To the future

Ridiculed, tortured, like a witch burning on

A cross

Lost, restless, like my best

Isn't good enough, tested, like a failure,

systematically more careless,

Overwhelmed, ashamed, as if

My life's a game

Confident, zealous, anxiety,

So lame, inappropriate, no

I'm good, no need to worry,

Now go and

Get along with your day