Closed Eye Thoughts
Overwhelmed
which way to turn
slow burn
up, down, sideways
darkness and pinpricks of light
anguish and fright
let me out of this cave
save me
too much
can’t hold it all
plate overflowing
broken, throw away
today
toss it
high, low, away
stay away
not here
not now
not ever
no room
broom
clean sweep
night weeps
light
clearing
fearing
fog lifting
uplifting
soft sifting
take it
make it
change it
run with it
faster, faster
found it
plain sight
Ahhhh!
Squashed
My thoughts at times crushing
like a fat man on a mouse
At times they get so heavy
I don't want to leave the house
My thoughts are mine
but if you're brave, I'll gladly share
They might tell you that I'm scary
They might show you that I care
My sumo thoughts should lose some weight
around the middle, thighs and chins
For when the bell rings and the death match is over
I'm going to be the wrestler who wins
Please stop.
Look, brain, I know this is hard for you to understand, but he’s not coming back, okay?
You can stop with all your weird cuddly-feely thoughts and dreams. You can stop with all your imagined conversations and in-depth ideas of things that might’ve happened if you weren’t such a freaking idiot. You can stop with all the “what if”s. They don’t matter, brain. What matters is the reality that he’s not coming back. He’s a new person or whatever crap now, so you can’t possibly think he still loves you. You’re nothing to him, so stop acting like he’s something to you. You deserve better than that, brain. You really do.
And yeah, I know what you’re going to say: you’ve tried moving on before. And yes, it didn’t work, but damn it, you have to keep trying. Maybe you will have to settle sometimes, but isn’t that better than being the lonely piece of trash you are now? Think about it. Or don’t. Because that’s just gonna screw with me more.
Seriously, though. Just give it a rest. For both of our sakes.
Sincerely,
A heart that can’t take this anymore.
Rash
What is this bump? I'm too old for acne. Oh well, I'll cover it with makeup today.
Jeez my chin itches. My neck is sore on the skin.
I'm home from work now. What the? What is this on my arm? A round weeping sore! Holy Cow! There are two on my neck and my chin is scabbing. They all itch like hell! There is one on my ear and two near my eye! Scabby painful itchy weeping craters! OH MY GOD!! Poison Ivy? Did one of those dirty inmates at work give me scabies? Did my cat scratch me to the point of infection? Is it ringworm? It's just a freak thing that will go away.
The boss won't believe me; we have several admissions coming in tomorrow. Oh crap there are two on my clavicles. What the shit are these sores? Aids! Auto-immune disease! Stress? Alright I'll go to the clinic.
The Dr. blamed the cat. Whew, no bugs or impending death. I hope these antibiotics work. I'm glad the Dr. took me off work for a few days, I look contagious. I'll take a nasty selfie and send it to the boss. She can't argue with that! Now she feels sorry for me, this is great!
The Lord works in mysterious ways. I wonder who will do all the admissions...
It's getting better now. Thank God!
A Rather One-Sided Conversation
Look, do you mind?
I'm taking a test here.
yes, actually. I did study. why ask?
they are too right!
I don't know why I put up with you.
seriously.
you have too much of a negative outlook.
glass-half-empty.
and this morning, with the "burnt" bacon!
it was crispy, okay?
Geography is a hard subject, so if you don't mind, I'd like to get back to it.
what about Sara?
No!
I have told you a million times, I don't cheat, okay?
Nuh-uh.
don't you dare look at her paper!
you already snuck a piece of gum during first, why isn't that enough to satisfy you?
seriously, Mischeviouswillow, you have got to control yourself.
go away.
don't make me banish you to the happy room!
you know I will.
that's right, back on the shelf.
now shhh, okay?
and tell Smartwillow to hurry up already, will you?
she's been in the bathroom for too long now,
and I really need her to finish this test.
Proponents
.
I turn to my thoughts
and they turn on me
turned around to the ground
!
W o r d S
!
tilting my pen upside down
we turn to one another
in this vicious twist
!
for strength as I insist
each and every
weakness wrought and unbent
from our mortal quest
!
true some are small
naive muscle-less ideals
predestined to fall with
not much fight at all
!
but others are block walls
that stave me overnight
as if building up the
biceps of my tongue
!
many bark back
in sarcastic semi-adolescent fun
while a rebel few have
demo-ed utter insolence
!
with a cut throat resistance
trenched in my deep sub-terrain
where they are training the super ego
with assorted weights and cables
camouflaged in the folds of my brain
!
meanwhile the shy do try
to hide albeit being entirely
visible from the backside
I never let these weaklings slide
pulling despite the whimpers
!
out by the diaper's edge
into broad daylight where
we will exorcise all these neuroses
and exercise our shoulders till
fully fit as proper orators
!
we've clotted and bandaged
our ink in literary fatigue
on a bonded leather writing mat
where we take our nightly
bows without regret
!
there's no Frenemy more worthy
Of Highest Respect
than the one that
mentally
whips you well
#PoeticJiuJitsu #Challenge #FreeVerse
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Good morning, sunshine!
I really don't feel like getting up.
I really should get up. It's 6:00 am.
But the bed is so warm...
I'm going to be late!
Nah...you have time to sleep in just a little bit...
.
.
.
HOLY CRAP IT'S 6:55!
So what! Just I just won't go today. I'll call in sick...
But I have that important presentation today...
But I didn't sleep that well last night- maybe I could sleep a bit longer and make up the presentation later...
No. I'm too busy. I have to get up. I'm going to turn on the lights...
AH! NOPE NOPE NOPE! Lights off feels so much nicer...
Ugh! But I have to get up!
Is it truly worth the sacrifice I'd be making on behalf of my health? I'll probably pass out if I go out like this...
But think of the consequences...
Think of the consequences if I force myself awake when I clearly need more sleep...
Right...I'll just sleep in today...
I'll just resume my comfortable sleeping position under my toasty blanket...
ignore all my responsibilities...
annnnd....
UGH. I have to pee.
!#$@%$^%&*^*!@#$%
Between You and Me
I bow down when I am low,
I roar when I am high.
I couldn't rescue Mother
The way you wanted me to curb you.
I went against myself
Just to save blood.
Life is against you now
So for me!
Your eyes told me untold pain
Which was forbidden by your mouth.
I fear the lady who forgets the blood.
I fear the dark night where I see your different images.
It's my aberration I challenge you
and trick you and trump you.
I'll rise and live up to my dreams
So you!!
Because it's your blood!!
Please forgive for the steps I couldn't take
And roar to the rest.
Be my love and encouraging flute.
Forgiveness be the harbinger of two lives,you and me!
#Poetics:Jiu-jitsu:Wrestle with your Thoughts
