Euphoria’s Never Been More Painful
I took a deep breath, inhaling bitter smoke.
Nothing was better, I decided, watching in rapture.
This was what is was to live without fear,
to be high without crack,
to be invincible without steroids.
This was fucking ecstasy.
Yes, I decided.
Nothing was better then the feeling
of lighting a match
and watching a building burn.
My stomach twisted deliciously.
Elation coursed in my veins as the fire consumed the faded house.
I stayed until I heard the sirens.
I walked away intoxicated with the feeling.
The weekend is coming,
Blow O’s to my X’s.
These our ecstacy rolls,
Daddy truly knows he rock me in my cradle, drug effects, make you see 2.
Chop it, line it up on the table, have a seat with my cuffed hands.
Sniff as you tweak, I’m calling this disease, you a trojan..
Let the saddle ride you, pinup doll, quarterback, I really wanna bite you.
Nasty like the drip, I’ve been naughty, got whipped, cream again.
Time Stood Still
Out of this world.
Fear and panic
Sweat and tears
Uncertainty and worry mixed with accelerated heartbeats
Unsure of what's on the other side
Who is this person I know but haven't seen?
What is running through their mind during this race?
Do they know my voice? My name?
A snip and it's done
The moment has come
A state so loving
So deep
My breath is snatched
It's me....all over again
I smile, cry and laugh at the same time
The clock stood still in this moment
When my baby's face led me to euphoria-
pure ecstasy
I'm forever changed.
Pastiche, or the Difference Between Envy and Lust and Rhapsody
the poplar trees picketing Laurel Canyon provide no security
for those bordering their shoots and bark
fans of celebrity confuse the familiarity
and intimacy
of inviting this host or that guest into their home
for a weeknight conversation
one might miss the simple truth we are all just people
define your heroes and heroines
strip away the fame, the prestige and adoration
they are simply primates bustling through the forest of the city
getting by on scraps of work and pressures of expectation
you cannot relate to the stigma of relatable charisma
but you CAN learn
learn to be a loving human
build a castle to protect your friends, your shadows you seek
build a chasm of wealth and opportunity and be a genuine person
do not look to the screen for sex
do not look in your heart to set aside boundaries
do bring open your blood to boil with kindness
do see that idol with chrome, plastic eyes
as to not pierce your desire
as to not spark the fantasy
as to be honest
having a friend is the most important cookware for a long, happy life
try to imagine your deathbed
with no regrets
positive thought and zero "i wish i hadn't"
imagine a cloud of the closest people surrounding you
applauding and loving and crying for your interest and interaction
too much energy is wasted on that which is not reciprocal
too little breath and electricity is spent on the greatest form of cooperation
real synergy is intoxicating
actual love is euphoric
with a man or woman, child or adult, black or white,
anger evaporates in our last moments
shy the envy, slough off the lust. it is as false a high as a placebo.
even if it has an effect
it is not uplifting you
it is not enchantment
the rapture of what was
does not cool one degree
of exalting your heart
plant not a poplar
but a blade of grass
hold a fervor for true, blessed consideration