You were like a sunset

clouds gather in the sky's embrace

they leave a trail of kisses

when they fades

along the darkness

I could've leave a trail

for you

to follow

If you ever looked back

If you ever decided to look

back to me

back to where I was

You paint my sky in pink hue,

in blues and orange,

you left

while fading along the night

the sweet scented milk and honey

flowing in,

scattering

from behind you,

as I gaze at your back

That small back

who tried carrying the world,

the burden I didn't know

while following your footsteps,

while gazing,

at those long hair I always braided

freely fluttering

I sometimes catch the ends

brush it on my lips

ever so slightly

briefly

so fleetingly

and maybe

if you ever noticed

would you look back?

Your creamy little voice,

cheerfully greeting me

made my ears warm

and long for more,

how I wished

to hear my name

when it lingers

when you utter

so lovingly

I shouldn't have ignored

I shouldn't have made you choose him

you could've choose me

only me

only me

only.

me.

If you could be

So look behind you,

I'm here

still craving the warmth

in your embrace

how small,

how small the embrace you give

and I fit perfectly in it

It was the world you gave me

how small the world we own

i could've made it my own

Your eyes

it shines

it resembles the moon

serene in darkness,

still bright

and I crave those lights you gather

i see...

I wouldn't dare let it shed

a single cry

a tear

a sorrow

for those things

are mine to bear

I couldn't ignore this feeling

any longer

I couldn't ignore the way

you made my heart flail

while falling deeper

and I stop

still looking at your back

and stayed here

hoping

with the dreams

to cover you in my arms

I'll wait

and I'll stay here

but

I thought

i thought I could wait

but

you never once looked back

while you still walked the road

in straight line,

look back

I'm here

Something mystic in the view of mine.

She sits at the receding shorelines- at bay.

For she be truly a woman of divine.

She separates her gaze- to my dismay.

Would the hours be so unkind? Would the seconds be so unfair?

For every moment as vivd as her strands.

A seconds loss; my heart tears.

For when cruel time comes; she must return to far away lands.

The oceans envy her smile’s gleam.

Time seems endless in her gaze.

Yet time does not hear any of my endless pleas.

With a blink- she disappears without a trace.

Time was once again, of no use,

For you were sadly but a fleeting moment of muse.

When I close my eyes and think of you we're on my brown couch that's seen so much of us and had so much love pass through it in that room.

I'm holding you in my arms, I'm so happy to be near you. we're covered in blankets and wrapped in my sweaters. We're holding hands and watching the world pass us by with idle chit-chat and small laughs.

I had to get rid of that sweater, it held too many memories of you and burned my skin to wear it. You took that sweater with you, sometimes you still wear it and I wonder if you miss me too. I can't listen to that song anymore because we used I croon a melody together. Hunched over instruments, smiled as we would sing.

When I close my eyes and think of you we're back on the floor, almost kissing. I wish we had. You're in my kitchen, in my room, you're everywhere I look and I think of you.

When I close my eyes and think of you we're on my couch, your teeth are crooked and your smile is so bright. It's the last time I'll ever hold you, but we don't know that, so we let the world pass us by.

Let me enter my point. Love. What is love? It's totally a different feeling which starts to engrave in your heart over someone. Even something. Once you encounter your first confrontation with your 'lover', how would you feel? I know that it varies and depends on the kind of person and the situation you're in. Sometimes, your tummy will be loaded with butterflies. You'll feel that you're in a dream to run into someone so loving. Uhm...here, does gender matter? I don't really think so. Despite whoever it is, if you start loving the soul of who stole your heart, you'll be drown deep in fantasy. It's quite obvious, I suppose. When you get to watch them everyday, undoubtedly, your heart will melt like butter. Trust me, no matter how much your dear love grows, still it can be unknown. Those who know, they know what I mean. Just think. Do you think that love has its own space everywhere? Well, it's something undeniable. Because you may be shy or cornered to confess your love. But everyday, everynight, you dream to become another Romeo. Another Juliet. You'll bear your one-way love thinking that even Romeo & Juliet had heaps of barriers. That's the reality. You have to hold onto your lovely yet unrealistic feelings for a while. Nevertheless, NEVER GIVE UP! Friend, you got this. Why can't you write down your love in your journal? Or in a nice letter? Go infront of your mirror and tell 'I love you'. Hug your plushie as if it is your lover. Try to gain your confidence. In no time, you'll be loved back. Love is all over the place. Just gather it and mend it according to your life.

- Having a love of your own is a favour, not a crime. -