Before the clock struck twelve

Rogue thoughts warred with heartbeats

Oh how you flirted with Fate

Keeping pace with the angels

Even as devils crouched at your feet

Never have my wings felt so clipped before

Having you rip out my tongue with those words

Elaborate lies I believed upon a time

All the deadly signs ignored

Remembrances now beat me to the ground

Tell me nothing more, I’m lost forever

She left me alone in the snow

Crying,weeping

She told me she never loved me

happily going

She said she's sorry

casualy,normally

I said I'm broken

sadly,eerily

tw mentions of suicide

Twas the night before Christmas, when all through the house

Not a creature was with me, not even a mouse;

My stocking was hung from the chimney with care,

But I know that not even St. Nicholas will be there;

There weren't any children nestled all snug in their beds,

And visions of ending it all danced through my head.

(When I was a kid, I would get so worked up over xmas, I would feel devastated the day after. I'd gotten what I'd asked for. But I was left thinking, "How will I make it through a whole year until this happens again?" Plus I was really mad at my folks when I found we'd been being betrayed.

Fast forward: I didn't tell my sons there was a "you-know-who". I thought it best to spare them the lies. When they were around 14 and 9, I asked if they would rather I had lied about "it". Long ... pause ... ... ... They admitted they felt I should've lied. What? Bam!)