Heels causing aching feet

Stomach roaring in protest

Face feeling heavy

Arms tired from a remarkably heavy purse

Feeling confident in a long black dress

Leather jacket comforting

Cheeks hurting from laughter

A mix of love and hurt

A mix of stability and falling apart

A mix of what I feel and what I should feel

like I've got the world at my fingertips

the ability to self define is staggering

the potential to get outside of myself makes my pulse race

I feel naked and venerable but

my heart is so full and

the whole world is

windows

the sky is

doorframes

my mind is

blank but

not for lack of

things to say

the pages

turn

and the music

that echoes through

my fingertips is

all I've never

dreamed I could

be

I feel tired (getting up at 6:10 is not fun).

I feel nervous (I always feel nervous for school).

I feel relieved (it's Friday).

I feel impatient (there's precisely 10 hours till I get to sit around and do nothing).

I feel annoyed (we're being forced to play kickball today, I'm almost completely sure).

I feel like there's a long day ahead of me.

It's 4 AM,

I can't sleep.

I feel sick.

But not bad,

Like the kind

That's just enough

To skip school.

It's 4 AM

I can't sleep

But my pajamas,

New for christmas,

Are sushi patterned.

I feel cute!

It's 4 AM,

I can't sleep.

I was worried

I said something

Wrong to her,

My girlfriend, earlier,

But I didn't.

It was better

Than I'd hoped

It could be!

It's 4 AM

I can't sleep

And I'm searching

For video games

With good customization

Because I always

Make my own

Original characters, obviously.

Its 4 AM

I can't sleep

But life is

Pretty damn good.

❤️