I partake in a double play feature

depending which way you look

I'll be your guide describing the way the world you entered

is to be played, see theirs wise men & fools

slaves and masters, kings that reign and kings who cause disasters

It all depends, how you play & what you're truly after

I'm your guide in your darkness in the light

I AM all you need to make the wrongs Right

I'm your enemy I'm your destiny all depending

on how you choose to remember me

I'm nothing but an image a clever design created

to reflect all you hold inside

I am nothing

so don't take me so personal, 

I'm only a persona

of what you choose to see

You are forever if you use me to set yourself free

I'm just a memory soon to fade away

when the end comes, it's then no longer you need to see me

for now, you see the key held in your hand

wondering how you received this treasure

you trace back to see; you were always forever free

alive aware you just for a moment lost the key to see

eternity is your resting place, where I won't be seen

for I'm only found in a memory to remind you

You're lost ; to find you at all cost;not to be left behind

I saw you clearer than blue sky-I'm your mirror

reflecting all you attempt to hid and all the beautiful

Light you can't find

I'm only here and alive if you remember

you only will remember if you forget

its then I'm with you till the very end

A dream you vagile see when you truly hold the key

this story which never ends, for the end; is just another beginning

with a quicker bend, sent to do it again

from me to my friend this story cannot be buried or

ever too heavy to carry

don't worry little light of mine

everything will be alright!!

Oh what was your destiny

to be a star?

may we follow you home

for we are lost

it's been awhile

& still this pain

lingers

we hoped you be the cure

& you still be with us

instead we put you back to dust

what life could have been

if we just knew how to love & trust

tell me the lesson

for me her for us

if we just wouldn't be quick to give in

love would finally meet us

it's itching me once again

& I hope to honour your name

the lesson stressing to make a change

another blessing we let get away

for a gift was given

only to again be quickly taken

if this doesn't wake us up

maybe we fail to awaken cause we already gave up

we forsake & break another chance to our plans

we denied believing a lie, so we are left behind

may we gain new strength

blind lead the blind

may the destiny of stars send rays

to lead Reinholz the name

you said was an honourby making you mine

little star of mine

start light so bright

shine a little ray

on my life

Why has this become this way

All we want to do is hide & get away

From all, that is to come

I don't understand why it is we run

From the sign of love, both aching the same

But deny were done

What will come about this

Her losing her son?

As I sit here and watch

The world becomes undone

Daily to pay the rent, has us & all we have spent

We haven't eaten right since I left

Recovery 4 months wow

Where has the time went

We fail, to tell the truth

Which hurts so what else do you do

Just suffer & wonder

What will become of this

As we go further under

Escape into the pleasure and pain

Its pressure from rain

Which gets us pressed

To the same old thing

Which comes again and again

Revolving like the sun

I lend out my hand as you as well

Only to see we pulled each other

Further to hell

Love will carry us out

Love is all that remains

Even if we lose all we have

Just know

Love is what I gave

I gave you as you did me

The love we claim to be

This is how ugly our love can ever be

It's caused me many late nights

waiting, waiting to be taken by the light

taken by flight

to where- it is I call home

in my spaceship- in my dungeon

where creatures are in incubators

for the 1st year of their life to be conditioned

not themselves to endure the life of hell

so much dark to lead so many

back to light

when they pull the trigger

it rick ash ays in ways

were their prey- were the strays

it trips us in so many ways

it is at most times

their is no other way

I'm programmed

operation mind frame

No, no I don't want too

but it's time for your shot

it's the only thing that haunts you

not the dope, the needle, the women

the poverty, the same wreckage

the railroaded entrance

leading me farther away

from my inner presence

I’m a victim-to tension

when swarmed by their overwhelming memories

a prison I'm place in

since the days I dug even deeper

within my vision

To only envision the messages

made to conform you

inch by inch

they strip you

when they inflict you by infringing upon your whole

existence

the matrix comes to bend and switches it

to alter your brainwaves

into fear beta states

which awakes our interferences

the radio signal is sending

false reads to falsely lead me

to believe all I see

But the question is?

why is it so apparent and when even witnessed

from someone straight staring in my business

standing in my presence

still, can not see how it is

I’m waging this war

this war I Chris I'm in

I’m at war

I’m at the Gate again

& wait to arrive before dying

only to find I entered

cause I already died

By faith

by capturing your dreams

channeling your means

refocusing on the horizon

by speaking words of courage

wisdom & inspiration

telling tales of victories from battles sought

& brought from the shadows makes destiny

ought to be reminders of victorious achievements

reaching more with

today is the day we been given

and you were born to win

today is the day we cease to believe

cease to live- cease to achieve

all our inner dreams- we speak of currently

or visioned

today we begin to tighten our belts of truth

shield of armor with protective symbols

powerful affirmations to build our self-image

in the truest possible way

A way that is known as the way

the truth- the light I AM

I AM might warrior

The prodigal son- one who has been found

by his inner one

he who in truth does not shun or judge me so why would he you

he just accepts & lets a process

known as transcendence rise me

to a place of independence

beats the odds of the death sentence

in this present moment

my presence

I hold now

here am told I hold all

everything

I AM forever end ever

by the works

of his will- he has awakened us

to our inner truth

follows you and all else every day

will forever sing- ring new

no longer bound by time limits

or past experiences

you are the one the way

with the knowing, you have been

created to co-create

demonstrate God's power

life force-essence

from the one source

to use to build up

the kingdom of heaven

step us up from the dungeons

where lost children grew up

lend them our stories- our vision-our passion

to inspire just one

to make it happen

inspire you 1st

his will be done

through the fire- truth is proof

which to rekindle me, you or our youth

we take the risks to see where it takes us

set fire to destruction to rebirth

A Season To Die

A Season To Live

A Season To Suffer

A Season To Relive

An Eternity To Love

An Immortal Story

outlives millions of times

we came to represent

what’s been sent

from the hearts of men

You are untouchable

You are now

You are everything with everything

You are destiny

Follow us now

Life is calling us

even if that means letting go

to love ourselves

may you know i loved you

not holding on too tight

I just loved you enough

so you could see your light

before it becomes too heavy

I have to leave for I never intended

to hurt you more

forgive me for all I’ve thrown

in your face

I’m still not sure why

but I believe in my heart

it was meant to be said

even if it cuts deep

that's something to be said

you can’t rest in peace

carrying the hurt of all you

have not yet said

my hope is you look deep

make peace with those

needing, wanting , waiting

to reach peace

Set yourself free

by setting them free

freely given as you received

so to receive it- has to be given

Give it away

I pray you trust to find

someone you trust to let go

of what keeps our cuts rough

scabbed and be fully healed

only to heal you find your truth

to become a

wounded healer

I love you forever

Never Give up

&

always remember

your loved

you are enough

&

nothing can break you!

fI sat here so long

Believing I have to love the broken

So they could live on

For I saw in them (ME)

I gave them what I believe

Is the remedy to our pain

I love so deep & the most wounded

For I have to

Cause it is (Me)

Who has been thrown so deep & wounded

I prided myself

That I was doing what others failed to do

My pride has unleased &

spread the Gates of Heaven & Hell

So far, so wide

So deep, so high

I encompass it all & drown in nothing

But a bottomless pit

A black hole I found within myself

All I have to do is shoot meth & their I go to the depths of hell

To face death

To the valley below & it’s there I meet

I hear the call of the fallen

Of those like me

I seek to bring them back to life

I’m screaming, fighting, dying to get close enough to feel you

& the closer I get

The more I remember where & how it all began

I remember what has caused these hells to bend

& why the screams are so loud

If nothing else

I will surely lend you my everything

In attempts to give you more than something

The nothing we have been left to feel within

& now I’ve gotten to the core of it all

All of my wounds &

Found out here

Nothing else really matters anymore

All that matters is my dreams are captured &

Not left to be a disaster

But what if

In order to reach your dreams

the disaster is what we truly are after

It has to happen

The faster it comes the quicker it grips my inner being

Takes me closer to the center of my everything

I hear the voices scream!!

We are all the same

We are all the same

I’m holding on to my dreams

Which I believe is everything

& it becomes plan to see

My dreams bring me to see

I’m losing everything

So I don’t know which way to go

Or what it all means

I just know I’ve traveled so far

I can’t turn back now

I made to walk through the black

The birth of death

My beginning & ending

To face my everything

In order to live

I have to walk through the pain

To see

It’s all INSANE

I AM NOTHING TO MYSELF

At the same time

I AM EVERYTHING TO MYSELF  

Travel fellow down a hell hole

downward graveyard by passing lost souls

minions and the crystal shard

break off a piece of the part

of the empty dark

spark it with the flames engulfed in your lungs

darkening your heart

filling you up with just enough

void to be pushed through

look how the needle has a hold of you

pressure pulsating through every vein

you can't hit, I hate when you start ranting and raving

miss behaving keeps your craving

mind racing frantically towards a disturbing addict

who can't just let it be

hopeless in any means to get that hit in the veins

depressed pressed against

heart beating chest

eyes wonder for lust to purge

from the inside out

the flesh and bone screwed

spirit and soul persecuted

devil and angels keep on shooting

shooting their arrows to rule heavens above and below

you wish you never got to know who deep this game goes!

Living the fast life

nobody is acting right

all your attempts to catch up for lost time

and inner pain is so heavy inside

you have to entertain the devils

just to bury them behind

it gives me chills- does it you?

in these cold nights of February

you have no bills to pay or place to stay

I pray your safe when I think of you !

which is often just so you know

are these nights as scary as people say?

where are the places people go

then they fail or run astray

looking back to where love was lost

it's too far to see now

so it's considered done & gone

all just memories fading away

in the distance of the black seas

it seems there is no horizon even to see

no safe place to call home

so you do what it is you now know

we caught in the struggle

we hustle and avoid trouble even found we balling

on parole like it anty nothing

how far is the fall from the place you stand

have you took a look within to see your fate as a man

I hope to share when you fall

that you fall with a truth

if you take it with you

if you dare

I love you and seen a desiring man who is

deserving of a helping hand

you are deserving of the promise land

prayers from those who as well as you

were falling as fast as they can

came to lend the final plan

at the final hour

those who partake in God's prophecy are

the fallen man

who stay faithful & will find themselves

arriving safely at the very end

with the truths that are worth more

than dope, the gold

or the bag hoes you come to fully know

its proof , you will keep with your soul

which tells of a story

of a prodigal son who survived

through strange lands to be given truth

love & genuine acts of kindness

that gave light to all who find it hard to find

those who give them this light

was given this light

all so close to being forever broken

totally helpless- we ran into ones who gave

us a chance to find what we almost

so close to closing the door

and our ghost we do forget

this was even still alive

not many seem to show this

dying 2 live the story of our lives

we so use to keeping the pain buried deep

we remain buried alive

living life in a hurry=filling ourselves

with folly and satins which only

at these times makes us feel alive

not knowing we still dead until the Lord

sends his troops to remind us all

of the life head

we are still so worthy to find the light

even through those as broken

as them in the night

The Fallen Angel

Chris Your Brother in the light and I come to find darkness

Thank you for not giving up

don't ever give up your friends Chris and Shannon

02/02/2015

To James my Brothers Keeper, not reaper!

Gave you all of me

Even the parts they become

Too afraid to see

I read- lead your inner rhythm

To get closer than any who attempted

But you wouldn't let in

Wide open to feel the touch

The touch you won't feel much of

The hug that takes away all the weight

That makes us the dirt walked on

Fight ignite write

Light the path

Speak into existence

Listen

I’m so present

So lifted

Gifted in the trance

You help to drift my attention

Gripped by your hopelessness

Romanticize trench you been fenced in

The gate open to let one in

I go so low

For its the only thing I know

Easily to slip in

I’m a sucker for love

Love till I’m sucked in by the tug

Of your words

Drunk off your whine I dine at night

Run is all we do

When hugged or loved too tight

You loosen up just a bit

As you loosen up your warm lips

Like a noose that snugs

When weight breaks it's knit

Is it really plots and knots

Tightened at my hip

Knowing what I know

I watch as it surrounds

The place I sit

I let it take me

Then I rape what I need

Take or break

The hold on me

Fold up the cards laid down

I'm then the one you know ain't me

I changed the rules

To the devil's playground

You fools who stay

Falling to deception

You have been given to part take in setting fire to your inner hate

Which bends you to hell's gate

I flow through easily it needs me

Heaven and hell

Harvesters reap what flows

Down the path that bleeds