I was once happy

Really happy

Actually happy

Thats a rarity now

I am depressed

What kind I don’t know

I am broken and alone

I am unlovable

I will be a testimony to my parents

I will be a great person

And then

I will one day, be dust

Through the fog I walk

As it gets thicker and thicker

Harder and harder to see

Harder and harder to breathe

It feels like a poison infecting my lungs

And spreading to every part of me

Infecting me

Mutating me to be a creature of the night

I should have never followed the illusion

I should’ve been smarter than to fall for this trickery

I cannot go back

There was never a way out

I felt lost, alone, abandoned, unwanted

Until I found you

I felt wanted

I found myself

I found of me, a part that I thought I would never see again

Then you left me

But I am now strong

And I have been recovered entirely

I have not lost any part of myself

I am found

I am the moon

Full of craters

Far away

A part of something greater

You are the asteroid

Crashed into me

Left your mark

A mark there forever

But you're gone so fast

Ricocheting off of me

Heading somewhere else

And I am alone

Full of craters I stand

Take care of this, I had asked of you

As I gave you the key to something special

The key to my heart

So you could marvel at it

And get to know the real me

However, it is still behind glass

I just need more time

Take care of this, I had asked of you

As I shattered the glass

Only for you, I had said

Taking your hand

As the fullness of my heart was exposed

But it is still in my possession

I just need more time

Take care of this, I had asked of you

Handing you the most precious thing I had

My heart

My fragile heart

I trust you with it, I had said

And that trust persisted

But only for a day

Take care of this, I had asked of you

This is what runs through my mind

As you smash it to pieces

Over and over

Never stopping

I can feel every hit

Every break

Every sliver falling

Please...

Just give it back, I whisper, wanting my pain to subside

But you scoop up my broken heart

And take it with you

Far away from me

Never again shall I see it

Everyone has a perspective

An outlook on the world

And perspectives are peepholes on how we view so many things

Some are full, positive, and happy

While others, are dark, broken, shattered, and empty

Perspectives clash

Clash harder than any war

Than the mightiest of armies

You see something I don’t

Something I will never see

And I want to see this person

I want to see your perspective

This me that you see sounds like someone I could never be

Though I may want it

I know it cannot be

For what is the truth to me is a lie to you

And what is true to you is a fantasy to me